“Beka, I need a plan…” Weary, sitting at my cluttered kitchen table I wondered if I would ever start writing. “Most people write about cooking or lifestyle or fashion or pizza and I am not just one of those things.” exasperated, I craved direction. A box to check, a line to fill in. Cori B Howell is ________. I desperately wanted to start writing, but needed the vision to be perfect in order to begin.
Note: ISFP. Enneagram 4. Loves boundaries but hates them at the same time. Not good at following strict rules or schedules.
Did you notice all the ways I attempted to show you the box of how NOT boxed in I am???
It takes a good friend to wade through this mess.
“Cori, that’s not you. You HAVE direction. That’s your personality. All of those things. So just get started.”
And then… the words that changed everything.
“People will want to read it. They will want to hear what you have to say.”
Or some version of that, not those words exactly, because I was so distracted at the thought that I just just get started.
I could begin and trust God with the results.
Let me tell you some things you will probably read if you check out this blog at any point in time:
Recipes. I cannot tell you how much I enjoy creating, adapting, and enjoying meals to share with my family. It soothes my soul by forcing me to be present and chopping vegetables. It’s also a tangible way to serve whoever is near- family, friends, coworkers, students- and invite people into my life. Also, who doesn’t love homemade pizza? Or freezer jam? Or appetizers? I digress.
Processing. I write to understand God’s presence and work in my life.
Psalm 143:5 says, ” I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands.” Writing helps me understand what God has done in the past through study of His Word and His character. When I learn more about who He is, it causes me to view my present differently- with hope and a true sense of freedom in that I am eternally His. More about that later I’m sure, but if you have questions, ask away 🙂
Encouragement. Whether that is a simple image, quote, or story, I love reminders. I’m a firm believer that we are never stuck no matter how much we may feel like it. Our emotional state does not define Truth nor does it encapsulate the entirety of our life. I’ve only been learning that through hard-fought battles of my own, and I want you to know you are not alone in this crazypants journey that is life. Let’s fight for optimism, even when it is hard.
Welcome to my cluttered table that is messy and full. Full of ideas, vision, bills, hopefully pizza, and life. We come alive when we do what God has put on our hearts to do- with or without knowing the final outcome- and this is my first step. Thanks for joining me- there is always a seat for you here.
P.S. Shoutout to my friend Beka for your encouragement and my wonderful husband Zach who says I should do this even when I face fear about it every day.
Y’all are priceless.
Pictured Below: Real life table- it’s not too bad because I’m on summer break, but that desk behind it? sheesh.